Lil' M

omg claudia your spain experience is soooo crazy.. THATS INSANE.. they really all take naps from 2-4 ??? omg i need to move there..

anyway i think im going to tally tomorrow around 3.. im bored down here in so fl. i need a party weekend.

so you know how we talked about how w beer you get drunk but you remember everything?? yeah well i wishhhhhhhhhh i could have forgotten last night. not the party... just the 2 hours with my head inside the toilet puking non stop... OK SO LISTEN: i had a couple of glasses of wine before i left, one mexican beer at jenns, and then drank off the keg. NO LIQUOR WAS INVOLVED. i have never been so sick in my life. the party was really fun.. i saw a bunch of ft lauderdale boys and i saw andy (cousins good friend)... anyway so jenn leaves buti was having to much fun so i stay and andy takes me to jenns later. well get back to jenns and they are just hanging out. next thing i know the whole room is spinning so much.. im like thinking im about to throw up but i really cant walk right now. so i layed down on the couch and then everyone was going somewhere but they were coming back so i was like ok nows my time to get up. so somehow i get to the bathroom... 2 hours later i hear them back again (ive been throwing up since they left... prob like 30 times). i was freaking out... i could hear them talking but i was sooo fucking dizzy. then i hear them come in the bathroom and jenn cant believe im still in there. i had this really cute jacket on and jenns like omg take it off and my this t shirt on. then robins like omg you need a hair tie... so then jenn goes to bed and robins like maggie do you want to get up and lay on the couch? i was like yeahh i would but i cant stop throwing up... so she goes ok so you want me to turn the bathroom light off? hhaahahaha so she does and im like holy shit im sooo fucked up laying on the toilet w the light off... and i guess robin feels bad that im in the bathroom still and so she goes and gets a trash can to put by the couch... im like heyyy at least i didnt make a mess and i got everything in the toilet but i was like "i really dont want to leave this room bc im not done throwing up." ... like between the time she said maggie go to the couch... and after she put the trash can out there i had already thrown up again... so anyway i go to the couch and throw up more (in the trash can) and finally pass out... i dont know how i got so sick.. like girls you know that i dont throw up much AND I HAVE NEVER thrown up at night EVER IN MY LIFE... ive thrown up a couple times in the morning so i was like did someone put something in my drink.. bc thats just crazy.

oh: my uncle died. :( they dont know when the funeral is but it might be monday. i may go home on sunday. my aunts in italy... i guess she wont come home for it.

so ive been super sick today.. brett looks over at me and he's like " are you gonna get sick?" ... next thing i know he brought me some really cold water. awww... it actually helps.

so i was drunk last night... haha good times though. big daddys is so much fun. jenn and i had to pee right? well the bathroom was to crowded for my drunk ass so we went to mcdonals. well as im walking out (i knew in my head that i couldnt take my beer).. well my theory when im drunk is "im hot i can do what i want and when i get in trouble ill flirt my way out" YES i know its dumb... thats why its my theory ONLY when im wasted. so anyway, i walk past the guy and he comes running after me saying i cant take my beer. so of coarse im like all over him like damn it.. and hes like chugggg it... anyway i dont want to do that so i set it down go to the bathroom, come back and drink the beer. haha. it was crazy there. i had so much fun.

oh and i forgot to tell you the most important part: i heard all our fav rap songs and i saw a couple of GHETTO black gusys doing "lean w it" and "grills" and i couldnt help to think that "if amanda was here we woulld be in the middle of that dancing" hahha it made me sad... love you ams.

SO IM WRITING IN CAPS BC IM WASTED . I HOPE U CAN UNDERTSAND WHAT IM SAYING.... I WENT TO BIG DADADAYS... (HAHA I SPELLED TH WAS THAT WRONG) BUT IT WAS THE SHIT. GO THERE WHEN YOUR 21 OR WHEVEREN. ANYWAY, I MET SOME NICE GUYS... AND I SAWWWWWWWWWWWWW BRECK. AHHHHH. YES YOU HEARD ME RIGHT .LKED HE IS SO CUTE.. WE TA ADORABLE... AND WE HAD A GOOOD TALK... WE ACTAULLY TALKED ABOUT HIM BEFORE WE GOT TO THE CLUB AND THEN JENN PINCHES ME AND GOES "DONT RUN BUT BRECKS HERE!" I GO "WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAT???" ... HHAHA AND LIKE 2 HOURS LATER I GO "YOU R ONLY TALKING TO ME BC YOUR DRUNK" HHAAHA ... GOOD TIMES... BRECK ... GOOD TIMES. ANDS ITS OK YOUR 19 BABY. HAH YEAHHHH. ANYWAY I SAW LIKE 20099909 COPS ON THE WAY HOME... REALLY I COUNTED LIKE 20 CIOPS... LIKE EVERY OTHER WAS A COP... GOOD THING YOU ARENT DRIVING DURING SUMMER

well ihavent updated on this thing in forvever. mainly bc i know most of my friends read it (notyou girls but the other ppl).. and i really can go without everyone knowing every detail of my life. anyway, the last update was about my sister.. she is doing OK. her doctor let her go on the canoe trip which i think was good for her.


as for me, im doing better. i was having a really hard time but i have learned to live each day as it comes and i keep in mind that these hard times will pass. IN august i will be the happiest girl ever... haha.. i always say that. last august i said it bc i moved here and now its bc im moving out.

you know grant is turning 24 in July. how crazy is that?? when im 24 if im not dating someone im going to start to get a little nervous. but he is a great guy... he has nothing to be nervous about bc lots of girls would love to have him. i posted this thing on myspace and it was about a how i could see when ppl viewed my profile (it doesnt work fyi).. but he sent me a message saying " you dont need a profile tracker to know im stalking you" haha he is funny. then (since i can see his grad photos) he is like "oh do you want me to give you a copy so you can admire them?" haha.. im like thats ok really.

i tried wearin johns ring yesterday... it didnt work.. i cant do it. i dont think it means anything to him so im not wearing it.. espically on my ring finger (engagement one)... thats the only one it fits one. i wear the ring of my birthstone on my right hand bc the guy who gave it to me is wonderful and put up w me for 2 years so i would say he deserves it .. lol. plus he took my virginity and the next ring i put on my hand will be my engagement one (the one who takes me heart) .. haha thats lame i know.. but if you think about it.. its not a bad idea.


work has been crazy. the phones didnt stop ringing for 5 hours straight last night. and then they finally died down at like 7:30. besides that its fun though. we entertain ourselves. the whole office goes online and plays some game (i forget the name) . but joe yells at me when its my turn and im not paying attention.. lol. i try to answer phones, do homework and play the damn game. its tough lol. oh by the way he is hot but you didnt hear it from meeeee. haha.


well, theres so much other stuff going on but i dont want to bore you. bridal shower the 24th of this month im going home for. ahhhh, im really excited for the wedding but its definatly not what i need. geezeeeee, the last one i came home like omggggg i want to be in love. and her husband is soooo in love with her. i might have someone thats in love with me right now (at least he says so)... but personally.. when someones says they love you they actually care about what your up to. i hear from him like once a month. im over that shit.
but i must leave off an a good note: I MISS YOU GIRLS!!!!!!!

so i just sent my dad an email. my mom said i should call him last night and ask why he never told me but i didnt want to. today is like my friday though.. bc im going home tonight. i have only been to each class once since it started two weeks ago (my advertising i only went the first day).. i was going to go this morning but for some reason i felt bad.. prob from crying all night. ha that was prob whyyyy.

so today was awesome. found out some really great stuff. NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. my head hurts from crying so much. i called my mom crying bc my dad never even told me. thats coolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. so ive been pretty upset. after i found out from my sisters mom ..i called my mom crying and i couldnt explain to her why i was so upset .. haha. my away message was 'tears are falling' and grant was like "dont cry bc your fav character WILL live tomorrow night in the oc." haha. thats funny... i gotta finish packing... and drinking my beer. HAha.

1) How old do you wish you were?
the age i am now :)

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
4th period english (high school)

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
try to shake it...Then get pissed... hopefully I have more change... If not then oh well

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
for the most part

5) If you would get a tattoo, what part of your body would you want it on?
lower back.. but i would NEVER get one... aka TRASHY

7) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Spanish!!!!

8) Do you know your neighbors?
the guys across the hall .. yes

9) What do you consider a vacation?
No work, no school, and in a place i dont go very much

10) Do you follow your horoscope?
I'll read it occasionally to see if it slightly is true.. but no I don't follow it

11) Would you move for the person you loved?
yes i would

12) Are you touchy feely?
hah yeah

13) Do you believe that opposites attract?
I think they can... but there has to be something to talk about!

14) Dream job?
my dream job is the job that claudia thinks i will have: club promoter (like write reviews for all the hot club in south fl) or own my own special events company and work there sometimes but mainly justbe a "desperate housewife"

15) Favorite channel?
hbo

16) Have you ever attempted suicide?
HAHA no!

17) Favorite place to go on weekends?
the beach

18) Showers or Baths?
showers

19)What's something you have learned recently?
well i havent been to school in a week.. and unless you can learn something while getting wasted then i havent been learning much

22) Do you trust people easily?
Yeah I do

23) What are your phobias?
snakes, frogs

24) Do you want kids?
someday

25) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
No

26) Where would you rather be right now?
laying on the beach

28) Who makes you feel guilty?
God? I don't know

29) Heavy or light sleep?
depends... lately light sleep

30) Are you paranoid?
I worry... but not paranoid

31) Are you patient?
def. NOT!!!!

33) How do you feel about interracial couples?
no comment

34) Have you been burned by love?
yeah

35) What's your life motto?
"dont cry bc its over. smile bc it happened"

36) Have you pranked phone called someone before?
haha of course

37) What were you doing midnight of last night?
hmmm.. i dunno ...

38) Song you're listening to?
nothing .. im at work

39) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine

40) What color is the shirt you are wearing?
grey

41) Most recent movie you watched?
monster in law

42) 3 nearest things:
phone, icee, purse

43) Do you tell people that they have something stuck in their teeth when they do?
no unless they r my mom or a db (hha)

44) How much cash do you have on you right now?
None!

45) What's youre favorite color?
pink or aqua

46) What's your favorite town/city?
hmm... I don't know. I need to travel more to find out.

47) I can't wait...
till I am done with school IN AUGUST I WILL BE A COLLEGE GRAD WOWOWOWOW

48) When was the last time you saw your mom?
easter wkend but im seeing her thursday yay!

49) When was the last time you saw your dad?
easter wkend

50) best advice ever given?
only God can truly make you happy. - my mom.

so i was the 3rd top seller in the company selling over $3,750 last week. whoop whoop. lol.. this lady just called me and she was like sooo ghetto talking. she pronounced her number 4 like fo .. i was like omg. haha. then she was like do you have children? haha no i sureee dont.

im bored. lol. i wanna be at the beach. im going home thursday but then we leave for mississippi friday at noon. i have to take my step dad to therapy that morning. he had surgery last monday and stayed in the hospital till friday. it was crazy. anyway soooo i really hope i catch the boquet at the wedding on saturday. lol. omg so saturday night i was wasted.. well actually i was wasted like all the time but saturday i really was and i got home and i open the freezer EVERYTHING falls outttttt like major... i start screaming and i was like fuckk thissss... so i didnt have to clean it up.. u know how i get w that. anyway so now the freezer is like part bent inside. haha.. funny...

he's been calling me but i never answer. he was drunk at jenns and he was like "does she take a month to call you back, too?" then today he got online and was like yeah so i thought we were going to actually hang out this summer. then i told him how i felt and he was like its called flirting and if that scares you we wont hang out. i go "fine we wont" ... haha. (oh i cant use names but girls you should know who this is)

so at work along w answering phones i do this live chat thing that allows ppl to go to our website and ask for instant help. well i was up from my computer for a second and i get back and this lady has said:
Visitor: Are you there?
Visitor: This is a poor excuse of help. I might as well be asking these questions to my 8yr old daughter who has enough sense to respond to a person when they are asking them a question.
Visitor: Still no response. Well to hells wit you. YOU'RE FIRED!!!!!! BYE
Visitor: Maggie are you retarded?
Visitor: OR
Visitor: Retarded you are.
Visitor: Am I burning your stomach yet maggie
Visitor: F@#& this



HAHA i was FREAKING OUT. i told the ppl around me and everyone was laughing and they thought brett was playing a trick on me. ANYWAYYYY we found out it wasnt him and we thought it was coming from the building so we thought maybe it was bob (but i didnt think he cussed bc hes really nice)... so i get my supervisor and everyone in the department is laughing and my supservisor was like this is maggies supervisor how may i help you? and she was nice. i was like wtf BOITCHHHHHH. she was from ft lauderdale also.

so i dont want to write on this lj thing anymore... lol.. but im going to bc its the only waay the girls stay in touch. i call claudia like everyday though lol. i was thinking and i realized that she is my therapist haha. i called her this morning and im like " well i was going to go out and play beer pong at the pond and leave by 12. thennnnn 330 came around... haha. anyways it was raining so i stayed there. i woke up this morning to go to class and i felt fine.. it wasnt until the boring ass teacher started talking that i was like OHHH SHIT im going to throw up. haha. (i never did though).. so i go to arbys to get greasy food to feel better but i end up not eating that much of it (i was soooo sick feeling). i almost called into work. but nooooo... im here (at work)... ive been here for 2 hours and i have 5 hours left. of doing thissssssssss -- sitting. the phones really havent been ringing that much . i mean they do but there are like 8 of us and the calls get split up between us. whatever i brought my advertising notebook maybe ill do that. or not. lol. i got the notes from ryan bc he took it last semester. so yay!! they are only 3 tests and that is it. im freaking out. and my other class only has 2 test.... im like give me a project or paper or something man. anyway, ive been getting krunkkkkkk in tally. cloud come visit!!

¿Hey cómo es usted? Estoy haciendo muy bien. El intentar aprender español... Haha... does that make any sense?

I MADE DEAN'S LIST!!! HELL YEAH : 4 A'S 2 B'S. WOW I AM JUST SOOOO SMART!

sorry i have to post these somewhere to save
if you didnt know what you had when you had it,then you didnt deserve it.

"I love the nights I can't remember, with the friends I'll never forget."


"The only way your toe is going to get better is if you have a lot of sex over the next few days" - paramedic told me this in Key West

"Hello officer. No, Im not drunk I just dont have any pants on"

"True friends are like diamonds- bright, beautiful, valuable, and always in style."- Nicole Richie

"There comes a point somewhere between the bad hangovers & drunken heart to hearts that you realize all you need in life are a few good friends and a few good drinks." -Sex & the City

"You know that ring you showed me that you really really liked and you said you would just die if you could have it.... Wellll I bought it" - (haha)